a change of heart.

so this summer’s not exactly what i was anticipating. i don’t know how i expected to have time to myself. with a wedding. and a job. and my need to volunteer for everything design related at church. i’ve got a whole lot on my plate. 

and it’s been tough. i’ve found myself regretting the commitments I’ve made at church, thinking that my time could be better spent elsewhere.

but today, i got to go visit the print shop where my designs are being printed. it kind of changed things for me. 

these designs aren’t just another thing on my to do list. what i once thought to be a bother has the power to impact lives.

these postcards will fill the mailboxes of people that may not know how awesome God is. they may hang on their refrigerators, and if nothing else, make people think. this sign is going to be in the lobby in an apartment complex with hundreds and hundreds of people. they will walk by it every day. and maybe, just maybe, my design will be what brings them into a church service for the first time. 

that’s powerful. like i’m almost in tears powerful. how could I have ever thought this job to be a bother? what if my time spent in front of the computer brings someone to a living God? wouldn’t that be awesome?!

i’m flooded with guilt when i think about my selfishness. there is nothing in this world that my time would have been better spent doing. 

i’m doing what i know how for the glory of God. and despite my selfishness, i think i made God happy today.