As my last days as a college student are quickly coming to a close, I’m beginning to think about these last 4 years in fragmented parts that make up this whole.

i remember the tough times. i remember when stephen’s mom died. i remember the friends that broke my heart, and the discouragement that came with my involvement in everything imaginable. 

but this week, as i was scrubbing our shower for the last time. as i was taking my pictures off the wall. as i was packing my dishes, the only thing i could think about was the friends that i’ve made. the ones that i will carry with me for a lifetime. the nights that i slept on floor and couches suffocating under a sea of books, laughing until i didn’t know what i was laughing about anymore.

the hours we spent at that bonfire pit. eating. dancing. and just being grateful for each other. the saturday morning games we played, that never started until mid afternoon.

the weekend trips, the open mic nights, the nighttime drives.

then there was the school part.

the countless hours i spent in the studio. the videos i edited, the photos i took, the animations i made, and the papers i wrote. 

I think about the professors that shaped my experience. The ones that gave me grace when i deserved it, and put their foot down when i needed it. the ones that motivated me to learn because of their evident passion for the material, and for us.

and as much as i’m ready to leave, and as much as i don’t love school, i can’t help but cry a little. i’m going to miss this. i’m going to miss these people. 

the conversations i’ve had. the love that i’ve been shown. 

i am 6 days away from not being a college student anymore. 

and i don’t know how to feel.

“Servants, do what you’re told by your earthly masters. And don’t just do the minimum that will get you by. Do your best. Work from the heart for your real Master, for God, confident that you’ll get paid in full when you come into your inheritance. Keep in mind always that the ultimate Master you’re serving is Christ. The sullen servant who does shoddy work will be held responsible. Being a follower of Jesus doesn’t cover up bad work.”

in lieu of church today, stephen and i decided to do our own devotional.

we discussed the beatitudes while sitting at the very same picnic table where he asked me to be his girlfriend nearly 4 years ago.

sometimes things come together in a way far better than we could ever have imagined.

i love this man. 

to view more of our engagement photos, check them out here.

to view more of Krista’s work, check her out here. 

i can’t wait to show you the rest. 8)

thanks to the lovely Krista Hurst!

So three days in darkness slept
The Morning Sun of righteousness
But rose to shame the throes of death
And over turn his rule

Thank you God for your beautiful mercy.

Though we did not deserve You, it is as if we did. 

You are 100% unmatchable.  

I love you with everything I am and have. You are the reason that I live. 

Let no mistake be made. Today, and everyday I am yours.