for as long as i can remember, the desire to create something- anything, has been such a large part of who i am. over the years, it has taken on many forms. it began with music, and evolved into something much greater, and seemingly out of my control. i realized a very long time ago, that i viewed the world in a vastly different way than those around me, noticing the things no one else did.
years later, i am taking those differences, and making something out of them. the past few years have come with numerous discoveries about who i am and what my life is to be. and i couldn’t be more excited. i am discovering that this is more than just desire. desires don’t wake you up in the middle of the night with an idea- needs do. there is a need inside of me to create.
I can remember the first picture i took, as terrible as it was, that made me consider photography as my next creative outlet. it was my aunt’s funeral. i was thirteen years old, in the middle of a cemetery, knowing no other way to handle my adolescent grief than to document it. that’s where it began. since then, i had toyed with the idea of taking pictures for a living, yet always finding some excuse to run away, most of the time money related. so i would find temporary career ideas, but i somehow always found my way back.
it wasn’t until about a year ago, when i finally decided that photography, and photography alone is what fulfills this “art shaped hole” in my life. but the decisions aren’t over.
what am i going to take pictures of?
photographing people has always been my weakness. still life is easy. it doesn’t move, and it does exactly what you tell it to. people don’t. but once again, i let go of my passion to consider finances. bad idea. i don’t ever ever ever want to be someone who regrets their choice of career. and i know with everything inside of me that if my choice wasn’t photography, i would be one of those people.
so here comes the exciting part…
this week, i had the privilege of meeting Michael Smith of Ash Imagery. i went, hoping to possibly get a chance to spend my summer carrying the equipment of a stranger who would most likely never know anything more than my name, and the fact that i enjoy photography, and if i was lucky, show me a couple things.
i could’t have been more wrong.
it was such a surprise to me to meet someone that cared. i am so blessed and excited about the thought of spending this summer with someone who shares so many of the feelings about art that i do. i am overwhelmed with the fact that i get to learn from someone that wants to help me be as great as i can be. and i couldn’t be more excited if i tried.
i am so ready for what the future holds.